I am still upset over the probable loss of my name Hudson. I don't know. My friend Andrea said that we must have the same taste and that really they didn't know (she is his sister the one who asked to use it last year.) I am not sure if it's true family will never go against family and really does it change it? They have named there son Hudson. A name that everyone loves so far and is praising. I can't help thinking it's my name!!! Friends I have talked to about this understnad how I feel. I mean I have prayed over my baby as Hudson or Ariel the last time I was pregnant and I have been doing that again... Hudson has been in my heart for over 6 years. It has history with me also as I used to work for 5 years at the Bay which is the oldest dept store in the world originally being named the HUDSON's Bay company. I don't want to have a boy and than be calling him by another name thinking he should be Hudson. Nevermind finding another name with not using any in Chad's family. They all use popular cool names. It's hard for my readers to understand how it will be hard if I go with it since they aren't good friends. What makes it so hard is that we go to the same church know a lot of the same people. It's a community in a way. I don't know what to do. I am not devestated as I was but still disapointed. I am praying that I will be mature about this, that God will lead me with where I should go.

Tommorow! Tommorow! See my baby tommorow! It's only a few hours away!

I have started to potty train Ariel. And after 3 days I can honestly say that this is the worst part of being a parent. Sure getting up all night long was tough but they were a hopeless baby who you could hold and kiss as much as you want! Dealing with a toddler who can hold her pee doesn't like wearing any clothes and will pee on the potty but not if I ask is not fun! It's actually going quite well and I don't like it! Monday was tough but tuesday was amazing! She peed several times in her potty! I bought the Kushies traning pants and she will not pee in them so when we are at home she wears that. But when I put a pull up on her to go for a walk she calls it a diaper and will pee. Today was horrible I knew she had to pee but she kept holding it even asking for a diaper! I said no thinking she would pee. She did a bit but not enough evenutally filling her traing pants. Today was a write off. I know Ariel is ready. She can hold her pee, she tells me when she poops while she is doing it, but what makes me have to train her is that she takes off her diaper all the time! After several weeks of asking her not to, telling her only I and daddy change her not her she has not stopped. And really as horrible as it is now, it would be so much harder to do with a newborn!