I wonder if things are so much more difficult this time because it is my second pregnancy. Or if it's because it's a boy! It's probably both. I find that it's so difficult at times to think. I just can't make decisions, I forget everything and i find myself getting mixed up. Last time after the morning sickness and headaches were over I felt like myself and great. Not so much this time. I carried Ariel a lot higher, at this point I needed a bra extender for a while already while I don't think time. I am carrying this baby lower, but still higher than the average person does. But I don't have the longest waiste all my height is in my legs. I find that I am so much more emotional and sad! It's just so unlike me! And another difference is all my rashes. I have excema on my face, all over my arms, my legs and under my breasts. And now I have another new rash that isn't excema but I am not sure what. I am not a person who hates being pregnant. Who talks all the time about having the baby already and complains for weeks. (So many people are.) People ask me if I am ready and it's coming and my reply is that I don't mind, I know how much work labour is and a newborn!

One of the biggest difference for me is the way this baby moves. Since it's lower I find that I can feel EVERYTHING. And well this baby likes to move all around and well it hurts! The pressure as he is going from head down to head side to side is painful! Everyone comments on how small I am. How I am carrying all in the belly, I guess I know a lot of newer people as they always comment on how it's all belly. My friends who knew me last time too all tell me how much smaller i am this time. Is it possible that I am not big enough and that is why it feels this way when he does his acrobatics? It's just so different than Ariel was! It's not his kicks that bother me, it's the all over movement. Ariel kicked hard but not this! When is it that they go head down and they can't move all around anymore? Soon?

It turns out that my poor nephew Justin didn't just break his leg, he broke it in two places so he had surgery on saturday. Poor Justin. And well it gets worse, yesterday they did an Xray and found that they didn't set the leg right so he had to have surgery AGAIN today! Chad's mom said maybe when they set the cast they made a mistake. Oh my gosh I feel so bad for Justin, he is only 11! He was in so much pain and I can't imagine how much worse it may be. We probably will be visiting him tommorow, again.

Some friends of ours and I have been taking turns babysitting each other kids. Well really I babysat there two 3 tiems in two weeks and they babysat Ariel a few weeks prior and than last week. On sunday we went over to there place for there daugher's 1st birthday. There older son who is Ariel's age was sick. At the end of the night my friend Karla's twin Kristin said to Karla, I think Javon has fifth desease. And she should know as her son had it in the winter. Fifth disease is the first desease of rashes, basically the kids face looks slapped it's so red and he has a rash all over his torso. Which Javon had. Karla emails everyone monday morning to tell us with the link. So I read it and saw that it said if your pregnant to contact your OBGY! So I call and talk to the nurse. My OBGY calls me back and is all concerned, and tells me I have to come in for a blood test to see if I had it as a child. If it turns out I didn't they will test me again in a few weeks. She said if I don't get it my baby is safe. I know that kids get sick and things pass around. You always hear when your pregnant about risks from sick children but you really don't think it will happen to you. I am a bit annoyed. I found out from another friend how J actually had been sick with a fever and such on and off for two weeks. Right at the time when I was watching them. They never told me this. At the party I said to them let me know what happens when you take J to the doctor. There reply was were not going to the doctor. My other friend also said she thought it was werid that he was sick on and off for two weeks with a fever and such and they didn't take him to the doctor. I know there busy, but one of them was at home, I know life get's crazy but go to the doctor! Chad is actually mad, he says that they are being selfish. And really in some ways this action really shows that. We are noticing little things that show that they can be like that. It's hard when your such good friends and there part of your group. It's kinda annoying that they risked it for me, I know they didn't think it was that but they didn't even tell me he had been sick! And here I am going to get blood tests when they didn't even take him to a doctor for sure to diagnosis him. A lot of our friends are upset with the situation as they went ahead with the party, and exposed all there kids beforehand even.